scare of being adult..

i have been acting like a child diz few weeks..

- waiting ppl to feed me (especially my mum ned 2 feed me rice..hehe)
- waiting my dad 2 urge me 2 do my thgs
- being irresponsible
- sleep like a child
- merajuk like im small kid
- eat alot but did not work
- always play around without being serious
- always says thgs out before thinking
- love sweet things more and more (like chewing thgs oso)
- play wif my dolls again ...
and bla bla bla..da things dat u can imagine wat kids do.

so i m acting like a child now
pretending im stil small

Diz is all becoz..im scare..im scare being adult..
im scare of being responsible for my own life
im scare of being alone becoz i can no longer hiding behind my prents when sumthg happen..
i m scare to make a decision jux all by myself, i scare wat if it was a wrong action..
im scare wat if i cant b a gud enuf to my parents and the other who puts expactation on me...
im jux realy realy scare...i dun wanna be an a adult...i jux dun wanna be..before i have prepare myself T_T

i jux...haven prepare...