i cried again.....im a crying baby....
rite now im typing wif my face wif tears....
i noe dat it might sound stupid to you, but im jux....
too sacre..
too scare to be alone...
too scare to live independent..i noe im not a child anymore, but i jux duwan to live all by myself..
im crying because jux now i chat wif my x-roomie, verryssa about bac 2 uni....
talk bout i wil b living al by myself , alone..
and i dun realy noe how to drive..its hard for me to go town for buying things i ned..
im crying because i scare to leave my mom...im not a child, but i jux worry too much about my mom....it jux actually i miss my mom and duwan to leave her...
i think im being treat like a princess at my home until im lack of the ability to live on my own....
i jux keep needing my mom n dad to handle all my things...
love them so much..
i scare being alone...
even i choose to live in a room by myself, its actually im training myself to become more independent...
but i guess im not ready yet...and realise that im not dat strong that i though im...
im jux scare people will hate me, feel that im annoying, gives alot of problem and....wanna run off rom me...
i worry i might be a bad person...
cry - is the best way for me to release my stress
to release all the things that i worry about...
and when i cry infront of u....
it will jux simply because that i trust YOU and show the real ME infront of u....
i just love to cry out my feelings....
im stress cause its been 11 months i din cry already.....
and now i finally release all my stress and emotion...
p/s: THANX FOR ALL THE PDI STAFF WHO HELPS ME ALOT AND LOVES ME ALOT, REALY FEEL LIKE WANNA STAY WIF YOU ALL BUT I NED TO MOVE ON....MISS YOU ALL AND WILL REMEMBER YOU ALL ALWIX....with love
rite now im typing wif my face wif tears....
i noe dat it might sound stupid to you, but im jux....
too sacre..
too scare to be alone...
too scare to live independent..i noe im not a child anymore, but i jux duwan to live all by myself..
im crying because jux now i chat wif my x-roomie, verryssa about bac 2 uni....
talk bout i wil b living al by myself , alone..
and i dun realy noe how to drive..its hard for me to go town for buying things i ned..
im crying because i scare to leave my mom...im not a child, but i jux worry too much about my mom....it jux actually i miss my mom and duwan to leave her...
i think im being treat like a princess at my home until im lack of the ability to live on my own....
i jux keep needing my mom n dad to handle all my things...
love them so much..
i scare being alone...
even i choose to live in a room by myself, its actually im training myself to become more independent...
but i guess im not ready yet...and realise that im not dat strong that i though im...
im jux scare people will hate me, feel that im annoying, gives alot of problem and....wanna run off rom me...
i worry i might be a bad person...
cry - is the best way for me to release my stress
to release all the things that i worry about...
and when i cry infront of u....
it will jux simply because that i trust YOU and show the real ME infront of u....
i just love to cry out my feelings....
im stress cause its been 11 months i din cry already.....
and now i finally release all my stress and emotion...
p/s: THANX FOR ALL THE PDI STAFF WHO HELPS ME ALOT AND LOVES ME ALOT, REALY FEEL LIKE WANNA STAY WIF YOU ALL BUT I NED TO MOVE ON....MISS YOU ALL AND WILL REMEMBER YOU ALL ALWIX....with love
p/s: thanx nicholas for sewing the coin bag for me....real touch!!
thanx ah B too, for da hp cover....love u guys
stop crying....
~boku sukida ANATA~
