PDI's vacancy suits me?

the time pass real fast until i din realise dat i d finish my 1st year of accounting..
n will becom senior in next sem..my 3rd sem..

feeling stressful even work in a place dat not dat strict as in btk pcs ...but stil im feeling like alot of them putting a high expect on me (coz thy noe last time i work in pcs s a fulltime ..)

tiring of da life of being a partimer n working in such a stressful company.....mayb is becoz im not dat gud n not dat hard working ..n mayb im not dat serious treating my job...

n everytime people ask me dat hows my job, i'll sure answer them ok ....but in my heart i realy din feel like things is ok ...but it cant b catagorise as not ok oso...
what acctualy do i ned/ i want?
i duno..
i seriously duno..
dun understand my thinking n feeling...
so im jux doing my job s those fulltimer want me 2...
thy request this den i'l do it....
but i realy think dat i ned sumbody 2 push me..den only i wil walk a step..(not self-motivated)

yesterday aft work (ofcoz s yesterday coz now is 3.44am...) i saw da PDI vacancy paper dat stil stick on da wall...
it says sumthing like : r u creative,self-motivated, independent n bla bla.. , if yes then join our group.

part time: (i jux focus on parttime coz its my work ...)
-single, 18 and above (im not sure it s 18 n above or not ..anyway, jux put a figure 1st..)
-trendy
-have own opinion about fashion (sumthings dats not write on da paper but i translate according 2 wat i remember lar..)
-those who have experience wil be consider 1st
n bla bla..

den i'm thinking of ...do i meet what they need?
im jux got da experience working in SEED as a fulltime, diz s da requirement dat i fulfil..
if TRENDY??? i dun think so dat im trendy....
n i dun have dat opinion in fashion / matching colour....(coz after study in uni..i feel like i lost myself..confuse in colours n other things oso)

haix...currently feel no mood 2 update my blog..
n feeling like im alwix live in a black n grey world dat i dun even wanna care da other things dat happend around me n feeling everything is bored ...

why am i like this?
i have no i dea....

- feeling random -

tired oso..

wanna be alone