speechless ... feeling wanna die...thinking too much?

whether u realise or not, im in a bad condition..
i dun care that u cares bout me or not but still i want to say that ...i m not in a good mood..

WHY?

1. things doesn't happen as wat i plan (being bz for few weeks just to give a supprise to my rommie as in her birthday, but end up....its spoil...) im speechless..
2. everything suddently 'boom' into my schedule without as discussion ..cause me cant have any free time at all to relax (even i wanna slept oso not enough of time...) wat de...
3. relationship among human being getting weird..or should i say worst?! i oso dunno wat had happen. feeling innocent n why its me???
4. exams can sudduntly on tomorrow and i need to study 8 chapter rite now?! damd it...
5. worrying my future house n room...bout which room should i choose?! OMG...please la, i dun wanna think d ...
6. giving excuses by everybody that i put hope on them.... sorry, i cant take it anymore..
7. people break their promise when they say that they will do it no matter how.... im fed up n disappoint..
8. not enough of money and still i need to pay alot of things such as house rent n rp expenses... god, help me please...
9. missing somebody deeply but cant face them.... im gonna crazy...
10. i dun wanna pretend myself that im strong anymore...thats not the real me... i jst wanna cry as hard as i can... but how? i d forgot how to cry... and the feeling of crying...
11. wtf... why human being got so many problem and still they have to live? just let me die...
12. can i just find a shoulder or borrow a hug from someone? i need it before im goin to collaps..

i dun have the mood to rethink everythings cause i feel like so wanna die..
ever think that if all this things can be erase away and i dun need to cares bout it.... it will be a nice life for me...
and yet, this is just my day dreaming...


dear my dudes n babes...

i noe some of u guys are having a bad day or even a bad mood....
wat i can say is .... i noe your feeling
and hope that we can get up again...mayb sooner...

im look like the poor and dirty little kitty that nobody wants me...

and feeling like the whole world d give up on me...

i am alone....

i am just something useless....

~heart broken~